Flying back North

Today I have to fly back to Alaska in order to prepare for my husband who is returning from this ridiculous war in Afghanistan. I feel super duper nervous and I have a bad feeling about the whole thing BECAUSE number 1!!!! I watched the movie The Grey which is a VERY DEPRESSING MOVIE (don't watch it before bed)

but anyway in the movie they are in Alaska and the plane crashes and all the survivors decide to hike south to find help but these wolves are following them and in the end everyone dies :(. number 2 I was finishing packing last night and a dang documentary came on PBS Frontline about flying with regional airlines and the safety hazards. watch Flying Cheap on Frontline So apparently although you book your flight through Delta that doesn't mean delta pilots will fly you the entire time. On my flight it says my first flight was operated by Skywest airlines. On the documentary it talks about the Colgan Air plane crash in 2009 and how the standards for those pilots are not the standards of the partner which was Continental Airlines, and how the pilots were VERY inexperienced and that was the reason for the crash.

So now I'm freaking out because my first flight is through a regional Skywest airlines and my second flight is to Alaska. My husband says I'm just tripping and I checked the safety sheet for skywest and delta and they both are good but of course once I dug deeper and looked on the FAA website you see some stuff you don't want to like (we are siting this airline because they didn't fix the nose on the plane or the changed the weight of the baggage area).... just venting my nervousness

FML DUMB CHOICE!!!

So I went to the gym and I wore GRAY cotton pants NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! so after a hard workout of my butt swallowing my pants I looked in the mirror and I had SBCS (sweaty butt crack syndrome) NOOOOOOOOOOO! so gross and embarassing :( FML
NOTE TO EVERYONE DONT WEAR GRAY PANTS TO THE GYM 
PS working out with the toe shoes is pretty awesome

Toe Shoes!! Vibrams

My toe shoes! caught them on sale at REI

Really?? Lol wow for real son

So 1st things 1st something funny (to you guys) my birthday is coming up and this is what I hear from my mom " I am going to get you an early birthday gift" (me) okay what? ( my mom) "its a membership to the gym!".... NOW I know I should be ecstatic but I was thinking wooooooow for real??? Lol I know I got some jiggle in the middle but dang mama! Lol but thats my mother for ya lol let me tell yall some other awesome things she has said " wow I can tell you are losing weight because I can see cellulite" and " your son really stretched out your belly WHEW he messed you up" (talking to my son) " look what you did to mommy's belly".... so after hearing all of that encouragement I should have figured about the "surprise a gym membership" stuff lol

ANYWHO.. so I went to my moms gym for the 1st time and I have no idea but I always get nervous before I work out ( why I have no clue but I imagine the worst like tripping on the treadmill and busting my nose open) so I get there and have no clue where anything is but I keep it cool and dont panic I jump on the treadmill and do a 2 min jog warm-up then walk around looking like a lost puppy until I go to ask the front desk... so the dude at the desk has a silky slicked back ponytail he is light skinned with green eyes I was like what what lol he looked Brazilian but I didnt ask... the funny thing was that I have NO clue if he was fit or not because I was just lost looking at his eyes and trying to figure out what 2 races makes a black-latino looking dude with GREEN eyes!! But green eye guy was no help he couldn't even get me a jump rope booooo but he did tell me where everything was yay! (By the way I HATE IT when cute guys work at gyms.. I mean im not looking for a man but I dont want you seeing me in my sweaty glistening funky-ness LOL (and UNFORTUNATELY I sweat like a 24 yr old burly football player instead of a girl so I dont even try the being cute at the gym thing LOL MY CLOTHES DONT EVEN MATCH LOL  I wore purple cotton capris and a green and yellow shirt today SEXY HUH lol))

So back to the gym. I did a zuzkalight workout and left... I REALLY could've done it at home but i would rather not to sweat on carpet and yoga mats.....BUT GUESS WHAT I REALIZED!!! I have screwed up feet!! Apparently I lean towards the inside of my feet when I walk so my old workout shoes KILLED my feet every time I jumped....I am getting some toe shoes soon (hopefully) so I hope that helps but I might need to see a podiatrist :-/

oh yea I go mostly paleo today wish me luck  day 1 ...August 8th will be my day 30

Big flop

So I was suppose to update the weight on jun 30th and nothing changed I am the same but  would like to point out I am not 100% Paleo and I was slacking on the swimming.... you know how your body has a certain weight range that it is able to maintain well mine is between 179-183 so if I screw up then im back in that range... I have tried counting calories but the problem with that is I like to cook my food  and I dont have time to weigh out a piece of meat or add the calories of each ingredient and then figure out how many calories one portion size is... what I could do is just buy a bunch of frozen meals and use that as my calories but I still would have to cook for my kid... that is why I decided to do the paleo thing in the first place because it was no calorie counting blah blah blah... so I guess I will have to take the plunge and go 100% paleo with no breads (which is easier than I thought it would be) no processed food (easy) and no diary (VERY hard for me :( ....) so I guess I should go out and buy some coconut milk other bloggers have had great success  which only losing a few lbs but TONS of inches..... OK so since im saying it on here I have to do it so that I wont look like a liar :-/
98%Paleo starting monday 7/9/12 lol i have to get rid of this junk in the house 1st........ by the way if I do cheat it will be with dark chocolate,yogurt or cheese but only 1 cheat a week

Cheesy awesomeness yum!!

Ok so I just had one of those cook what you have in the cabinet and fridge days and I ended up with homemade tomato sauce and delicious meatballs with Parmesan and mozzerella cheese YUMMERS!!!

so this blog is so that I can remember what the heck I did lol
ok The Sauce I had 1 large tomato and I cubed it ( I tossed most of the mushy parts) and then I sliced up1/4 of a onion, 1/3 of a red pepper and 1/3 of a green pepper all of these were chopped in a mini food processor and then I added 1 whole can of tomato paste and water and I let it bubble and I added basil (A LOT) and garlic flakes, black pepper freshly grated and some salt

Meatballs
I had some grass feed beef 2 eggs and cumin (A LOT) and onion powder black pepper and some Ritz crackers that i crumbled up... then I mixed and made them into ball shapes and I poured a lot of Worcestershire sauce and a little soy sauce on them and I baked them for 15-20 minutes in a glass pan with foil covering it then I drained the sauce out  and added strips of mozzarella on each one and then I added the sauce on top and the rest of the mozzarella on top of that and bake a little to get a little melting cheese action and then add the Parmesan and bake until Parmesan turns brown
* I had about .35lbs of mozzarella... 1lb of beef

the meatballs are very cumin-y but the sauce and cheese go perfectly with it yum i feel like a genius lol
as you can see I ate first and then I was like WHAT WHAT I need to write this down

Rice flour pancakes

So this morning I decided to try making rice flour pancakes and once again I found a recipe online to follow rice flour pancakes
In that persons version of the recipe she uses sugar instead of honey, she does not use cow milk and she does not use any flavoring extract.

pinch of salt

1 teaspoon baking powder

1/2 cup of rice flour

1 egg beaten

1 teaspoon oil

1/4 cup of honey

1 teaspoon almond extract

nutmeg

a table spoon

I mixed the dry ingredients in a bowl and then I slowly added the milk... afterwards I added the honey and I noticed the honey made the mixture really runny so I added 2 additional tablespoons of  rice flour to get the mixture thick again.. then I added the egg and oil and poured it on my skillet

The taste is different but its not bad I sprinkled some nutmeg on top of the cakes to aid with the flavor and that did the trick ( next time I will add it into the batter)

I will make these again :)

Trying new meals

I will be talking about how I made nacho's with homemade cheese sauce and instead of tortilla chips I made Kale chips (I know weird huh lol )

Kale Chips

you need kale, olive oil and salt

Wash the kale and try to get as much water off of the kale (shake it or blot it with paper towel or something.. I shook it). Then  take your olive oil and  rub it into the leaves evenly and put it into a oven at 375 degrees

I have no clue how long it was in the oven but just check every 5 min for crispy-ness

If you didnt get all of the water off then you will have some limp looking kale chips (as you see below)

If you did get most of the water out it will be crispy and erect (below)

I used 2 bunches of Kale because it shrink A LOT in the oven

Homemade cheese sauce

you need milk, butter, flour and shredded cheese I followed this recipe that is on youtube

I melted the butter

I bought a new type of flour called rice flour and I used it in this recipe

I added it to the melted butter to make the rue ( did I spell that right)

Then I added my shredded cheese

I then grounded my beef and I made some homemade guacamole

I combined it all and we had nachos

LOL it does NOT look tasty but it was really yummy lol

Chicken w/ the head cut off

SOOO much to do and I am a planner (just ask my babycakes, it gets on his nerves that I over think and plan so much because sometime I change my mind A LOT when I over think).... ugh and its not little things unfortunately. I have to find a place to stay in a whole different state Alaska which is our current duty station

and I still havent bought any plane tickets because since I am a military spouse I can catch a hop (which is a military flight that flies from one military base to another) the only problem with hops is you cant schedule them and they can cancel them at anytime so you have to be flexible :-/ but my paperwork to catch a hop expired and now I have to get new paperwork and last time my husband did it but now he is in Afghanistan so now I am trying to figure out what the heck im supposed to do.

I want to leave in august and I need the paperwork ASAP because its june 27th!!! THEN on top of that I have applied for a job at our new duty station (Washington) and I have to wait 6 weeks to know even if I been selected for the interviewing process. If I do get selected and I get an interview and I actually get the job then AWESOME!!  BUT if I dont get the job then I wanted to go to a community college around our new duty station and get a associates degree in sign language interpreting

BUT GUESS WHAT YALL the dang community college decided that, that program is going to be cut from the curriculum THIS year and I wont get there until NEXT year and this is a 2 yr program..... WHY ME im like dang for real!!
Remember this is my backup plan for if I don't get that job I applied for so now I am screwed. Now I have a half-ass backup plan because I CAN do an online program I have to pay more because I won't live in that state. Maybe I can find a military waiver or something (fingers crossed).

On top of all that my husband and I are discussing adoption of a older girl once we move in 2013 and I have had to do LOTS and LOTS of research on what we need to do and if we can train in one state and get our training transferred to another state...well the answer to that question was a big fat no.. so we cant start any kind of adoption training until 2013 when we get to the new duty station. The only thing we can do to prepare is to take the CPR/First Aid  and Blood borne Pathogens classes

Chopped up and screwed up!

So my babycakes birthday is coming up soon so I decided to cook him up one of his favorite desserts Brownies :-)

Any way I decided to follow a recipe I saw on another website the ingredients called for:  

12 tablespoons Kerrygold Salted Butter

1 1/2 cups granulated sugar

2/3 cup cocoa powder

1/2 - 1 teaspoon pure vanilla, orange, or peppermint extract, optional

3 large eggs

1 cup flour

A heaping 1/2 cup chocolate chunks, optional

So I didnt have any granulated sugar or cocoa powder or salted butter or vanilla, orange, or peppermint extract LOL. So I TOTALLY just winged it lol

I used brown sugar, 2 packs of swiss miss hot cocoa powder (with marshmallows lol) and almond extract and I think I used too much sweet cream butter :-/

I followed this recipe and melted the butter and mixed in the sugar THE PROBLEM WAS my moms cup measure's words and numbers have rubbed off so all I saw was 8 oz and I thought 8 oz was half a cup so I accidently added a extra cup of sugar I didnt need OOPS

also I filled up a soup cup with chocolate chips and melted it and mixed it in

I later measured and realized the unmelted chocolate made 2 and a half cups but melted it was like 1 and 1/4 cups of melted chocolate and finally I added 1 cup of flour and 3 eggs

My NEW PROBLEM was that my mom didnt have any round muffin pans and I was using cupcakes papers ( i have no idea what you call the papers you put cupcakes in lol) so i had to use a square pan lol

And my brownies came out looking like I stomped on them lol

But they are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good and hopefully my husband isnt reading this right now because they are suppose to be a surprise but I swear its soooooo  yummy its not even a dang brownie it crunchie and chewy and not brownie like AT ALL... but it has soooo much sugar its messing me up and im sooo glad I sent babycakes 12 of them and I only kept 6 because these things taste like they have crack in them... YOU WILL BE HOOKED lol we only have one left for my mom EVERYONE in the house loves my screw-up brownies my son loves it and so do I.. check out our faces lol

my sons milk mouth

the diet killer

Im going to have to fast again tomorrow (by the way its SUPER easy as long as you graze on nuts and drink a glass of milk :) )

 Ok im going to do some zumba to help myself burn some of this chocolate evil off lol maybe after today i can get my stuff together smh

Natural Roots

In high school I wore my hair natural... it has come to my attention YEARS later that people called me the girl with the fro lol I had no clue that was my nickname for people who didn't know my name

Then once I got to college I was sick of taking FOREVER doing my hair so I got a relaxer and my hair was doing fine but it was thinner.

So I over the course of some years I got married and moved and had a kid. So I wanted to try something new so I cut my hair short

As you see this is an un-even type hair cut with HIGH maintenance which I did NOT realize so I after my hubby deployed I said forget it and I went online and saw how to make my own wig and I made one. After that I cut my hair down to 2-3 inches and let it start growing out.

 I wore my wig/hair (I have like 1 inch of hair out on this picture) like this for about four months. Then my hubby said im sick of curly hair how about some straight hair styles so i said FINE!!! send me the $$$ and i will get a straight full lace wig. So I went on aliexpress.com web site and bought a wig from a dude in China.

This is what I do now.... I dont used too many products I wash my hair with baby shampoo because I KNOW it is gentle. Afterwards I put a bunch of Le Kair Conditioner on it and condition the crap out of it and I dont wash it out because the ingredients dont have alcohols in it so I dont have to worry about excessive drying. My hair SUCKS up moisture like a vampire.

Here is what it looks like with the conditioner on it

my ends still have a little relaxer

length when stretched

Okay so anyway then I do some Color Purple Ceile looking braids all over DONT LAUGH AT MY HEAD LOL

yes I DO have grays but they are more like WHITES

Then my scalp colored wig cap

Then when my hair has been under the wig I take it off and moisturize my scalp and hair with this conditioning cream